i spent a lil time to read your blog.

since 4 months ago, i didnt even go and click your blog.

yes, you like him.

and now finally i know that and i confirm that you are the one jealous not me.

and yet you pointed your finger to me and said im jealous about you and him.

thank you but im not.

i didnt even like him you know?

what for jealous about you and him huh?

and he is good with me compare with you.

dare to ask him,

who is his best girl's friend now.

im sure that the answer will be me.

seriously, we are just best best friend.

the best friend that quarrel everytime once we meet.

if you didnt stab me back,

if you didnt let me realise that,

if you didnt say so much about me,

if you did trust me abit,

we are still best friend now,

you and him still best friend now or maybe he will fall in love with you.

life unpredictable.

fate,

aha! you talked about fate.

then let me talk about fate with you,

fate,

soi soi he lives super near with me.

soi soi everytime i happened something sure related about him.

soi soi he is my best friend that i can share everything with him.

soi soi that he is the one who support me, hearing me cry when i was in the tough time.

yes! FATE! very soi, everything i happened related with him.

fate enough?!

i never mean to snatch away him from you or what.

just a gang of friend.

needa to change it like this?

you were so perfect to him,

really he ever said that.

i mean like he said you are a good girl.

but now i really dont know,

cause what you did, he has a pair of eyes to see to feel too.

please say there's no regret.

cause it is useless now.

maybe it is because of misunderstanding

but i dont bother to know anymore.

let it be,

let them be.

let the memories stop at there.

feel free and open it up.

tears drop and move on.

i know that our fate had stopped.

friend forever.

hmph! i said it a zillion times

"never trust in forever this word"

how hurts but truth.

nothing is everlasting.

NOTHING.

maybe this time you really fell in love with the wrong person.

or right person in wrong time.

see, no matter how much you did,

he is still by my side.

因为真正的友情是不需要用任何的手段得到的

get it?

i hated you quite long time, i admit that.

i hated you cause you changed my wonderful form 4 life.

viewing back my posts that wrote about how much i love my class and you guys make me feel like dumb.

what for paying so much, and what i get now.

i lost many things in this year.

i swear that i never expect that i will lose you guys.

i thought our 8 person

yi ning

chong ching

natalie

yvonne

maria

qin jia

jia xuan

kevin pui

will have a last longer friendships as long as we are all staying.

i was happy all the time when im with you guys.

but it is just a past tense.

i choose to end up like this.

im tired of people that i love leaving me first.

8 person a gang

now separated to 4 persons a gang.

hope you guys will still happy like before without me.

but i dont hate you anymore.

8 of us,

just another lesson in my life.

hope you see this,

i loved all of you all with all my heart.

yes, i did.